The Insignificance of my stupid home projects

by statia on August 3, 2011

I was all excited to have material to actually write about.  My latest home project, and how I can’t be stopped.  I’ll get to that soon, but today, I was perusing around facebook; something I haven’t done much of this summer, to find out that a fellow infertile blogger – Meredith, lost her husband a couple of weeks ago.  They were in a car accident while on their family vacation.  Such a horrible tragedy.  I never met Meredith, but I felt a closeness with her, as our sons, both IVF babies, were birthday twins.   I’ve always loved reading about him growing up, and we’d sometimes email each other.

And I can’t wrap my head around it.  I can’t even fathom what she’s going through.  What her kids are going through.  I sit here thinking about how shitty my day was.  How impatient I was with my kids.  How it was one of those days where I wanted to lock myself in the closet and not come out until after they were in bed, because they were just pushing my buttons.  And then I read this, and I feel horrible.  I know that we all have bad days, and at the end of the day like this, I try to redeem myself by spending a little more time snuggling with them at bedtime.  Telling them how much I love them.  Going over our day.   And that’s all you can do, because you just never know.

And I don’t want to overshadow her grief with my own guilt.  That’s not my intent.  I guess I can’t wrap this up in a good way, because there is no good way.  My heart just aches for all of them.    Please just go there and show support.

{ 2 comments }

Old School/New School Mom August 6, 2011 at 11:07 am

This is so true. When I was in the hospital four four days in July, I really learned to appreciate how annoying my kids were. I missed them annoying me. You’re awesome Statia.

Britta August 7, 2011 at 11:23 am

I know exactly what you mean. Sometimes we need to see other people´s problems and tragedies to appreciate what we have.

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