I’m staring down at my son’s IEP. The words, they paint a picture of my child. But it’s like an artist misrepresented.
The Brigance – Early Preschool 2 – Assesses a child’s readiness skills or achievement: The test assesses skills such as the child’s ability to label pictures, repeat sentences, match colors, use language and build blocks.
Score: 105 – A score of 100 falls in the 50th percentile.
Can name colors
Can match colors
Can sing the alphabet song
Repeats five syllable sentences
Points to “big” and “little” items
Names pictures of common items.
I feel as if I’m living in a dream world, where I’m trying to punch someone, but I have a force shield against my fist, only allowing it to go at such a slow speed, that any contact I make with someone, is surely going to be met with laughter. It’s frustrating to say the least. I try to explain to them over and over, that he’s echolalic. It’s like I’m whispering over a loud radio. Of course he repeats sentences. This is what he does. This is my whole day.
Batelle Developmental inventory – 2 The batelle is a play-based, developmental inventory that assesses several skill sets. Adaptive behavior, social-personal skills, communication skills, motor skills and cognitive skills. The average standard score is a 100, and the standard deviation is 15. For the purposes of eligibility for special educations services, a score of 78 and below qualify a child to receive special education services.
Score: 122 – Advanced development range.
social-personal skills, communication skills.
Neither of these things were tested using this test. Instead of subset of tests based on memory, reasoning and academic skills were used. Of course, being the genius he is, he HOUSED that portion of the test. The child remembers things from well over a year ago. He knew his alphabet (upper and lower case letters) before he was two. He knew his colors backwards and forwards. Animals, shapes, you name it. But if you asked him what he wanted, it was met with repeating the phrase or a blank stare. This is not what’s called “being a supergenius.” This is called atypical development.
After we received the PDD diagnosis (which I’m now realizing is like a loaded gun), the IU psychologist, the one who originally tested him the first time, went out to see him at camp and observe him. As if the notes from the original test scores didn’t make me irate enough.
During the observation, Mini did now show behaviors associated with PDD. He played next to the other children and with children. He followed the teacher’s directions. No self-stimulatory behaviors were seen.
Conclusion: In light of the school observation and CARS results (I did not fill out a CARS test), this psychologist will not diagnose Mini with PDD at this time.
Translation: Bitch is CRAAAAAAAAAAAZY. Making stuff up to receive services.
I feel like the walls are closing in on me. I want to scream. ”HOW DO YOU NOT SEE WHAT I SEE?”
Before I had LG, I only had other kids to compare him to. They say that you shouldn’t compare. I say you absolutely should compare your kids, and your kids with other kids. Yes, they ALL develop differently, but, averages are based on comparison. He developed typically in so many ways, yet, he had a difference to him. One that made me question my parenting on a regular basis. I watch LG, and I see her do things and make connections. I see her understand conceptual things. This is something at nearly three and a half, the Mini still has trouble with. Simple concepts. Yet, by looking at his test scores, you’d never know.
I have no worries about LG. She is as typical as they come. Something that any spectrum parent will tell you, is a huge relief. Prior to her birth and in her early days, I carried more worry and anxiety than I ever have. If I could possibly handle it, I would have a million more babies, and kids, but I don’t want anymore, because I just don’t want to take that chance again. I don’t want to revisit the dark days for anything.
That’s not to say I haven’t accepted what we’ve been given. I accept my son as he is. But he is a child that needs some extra help. Our diagnosis seems to be making things more difficult, when really it should have been making our lives just a tad easier. But apparently, he is confined by a strict set of characteristics that, according to them, are associated with PDD. And apparently, he needs to have every single one, and be exactly like every child with a spectrum disorder.
This? PSYCHOLOGIST FAIL!