Reuinited and it feels so good.

by statia on September 9, 2008

I guess I’m a pretty skeptical and distrusting person, because I got a call from my friend yesterday, while I was enroute to my parents house.  We ended up having the opportunity to see each other.  I found out she’s got a little girl about a week and a half younger than the Mini.

I’ve been talking to a lot of people from my past.  I think they all agree I was a pretty fucked up person at one point.  Awesome.

And while sometimes I probably seem like a neurotic freak a lot of the time, I’d like to think that motherhood has changed me for the better.  Among the obvious things of it making you more patient and less selfish, it actually has helped me to focus on the little things.  Enjoying a coy mischievous smile, or making him laugh.  As stressful as everything has been over the last year and a half, I’d like to think that I’ve found my zen.

I’d like to think that motherhood suits me.  Even if it’s not apparent.

{ 5 comments }

Shanna September 9, 2008 at 11:32 am

Motherhood. Apparent. A Parent. *snort*

*looks for “on” switch for brain*

mel September 9, 2008 at 2:19 pm

I’m so glad you got to reconnect with her!!

Tracy September 9, 2008 at 3:39 pm

I think we all go through an asshole period. Some do it early teens, some later, some in their 20′s. But I think everybody does.

Here’s the thing. I read a lot of blogs, and I know a lot of people. Motherhood – or parenthood in general – does not pull EVERYONE out of their assholeness. SO – Kudos, Mommy, for being one of those who found there’s something more important than herself! And congrats on reconnecting with your old friend.

I’m interested to see what having the new baby does for us. I had my first baby at 19. She swiftly pulled me out of thinking the world revolved around me. When I married, I inherited 3 more kiddos – all of whom think the world revolves around them! (Each. Separately. We have a lot of gravitational pull issues.) But now -we have a baby on the way. So what happens?

I dunno. Guess I’ll find out in about 6 months!

Chris September 10, 2008 at 1:28 am

It does suit you :)

Deltus September 11, 2008 at 7:48 pm

Having the first child, for me anyway, was the biggest mental shock I’ve ever had. I finally *got* that I wasn’t the most important thing in the world, even moreso than when I got married (although that started to creep into my consiousness when I got married).

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