2005, the good, the bad, the ugly.

by statia on December 29, 2005

I’ve had a standing tradition for the past few years, courtesy of Ms. Pants that I really love doing. My year in review, by month. It helps me to remember the shit I did in the past year. Because lets face it, my grandfather had Alzheimers, so I’m a little fucked. Genetics, they are a bitch. In fact, I think I have what Pete calls “quarterheimers”. Lack of brain exercise (because hello? Exercise of any kind? Hahahahaha. You’ve got to be kidding me) is causing it to atrophy. So lets sum up 2005, which for the most part, sucked, but there were some good things about it too.


January: Let’s see, nothing really big happened in January. Oh no wait, WE GOT MARRIED!! We secretly ran off to Maui and eloped. Just the two of us, and you know what? I wouldn’t have changed a single thing. Not even the pink wedding dress (which was really a prom dress, but who cares? It was pink.) Ahh what I wouldn’t give to be back in Hawaii right now.

February: I finally discovered the wonder that is Lush and there was no turning back. The Meester celebrated his 28th birthday. Which makes me feel old, you know, rapidly approaching the ripe old age of 30. Also, some jackhole offered to buy our dog from us. Did I mention that we never really put him up for sale?

March: March started out with a bang, and not the good kind of bang either. The Meester ended up in the hospital. He was puking up turkey meatloaf repeatedly. Apparently, scooping turkey meatloaf out of your gums with your finger makes you never want to have turkey meatloaf ever again. Good times. Also? I drank out of a toilet. How many people can say they did that this year? Huh? NOT MANY, that’s for damn sure. This was also the first year in a few that I missed “strippers and beer good Friday” and that made me sad. But on the upside, we went to L.A. to meet Wendy, Mikey and Fran. I like L.A. much better than this festering hell hole.

April: April was by far the suckiest month of all. The fallout of April STILL knocks me on my ass sometimes. We found out, quite surprisingly that I was pregnant. For those of you playing along at home, we’d have a baby right now, and well, have you heard any news about a baby being born this month in our house? No. You haven’t. This has been extremely hard for me for so many reasons. 1. The day after they told me I was miscarrying, one of my best friends and favorite pooper, found out she was pregnant. Of course, I was elated for her. But it was bittersweet for me. As I type this, she’s in the hospital awaiting the birth of her baby girl boy, and I couldn’t be more tickled for her. I can’t wait to meet him. I do encourage everyone who, god forbid, goes through something as devastating as a miscarriage, to go out and buy yourself a big “miscarriage present” to make yourself feel a tiny tiny bit better. I don’t wish anything like this on my worst enemy, but sometimes, there’s nothing like spending a little rainy day money to help you cope (drinking heavily also helps.). For us, this was our tivo. Yes, we finally joined the tivolution, and after a bit of tantrum throwing, I don’t know how I lived without it.

May: My cousin, who’s like a baby sister to me, turned 21. Seriously, I remember when she was born. I feel so old. We had visitors for Memorial Day weekend. We headed to Alcatraz and Mac ate chicken feet. mmmmm good.

June: June had me taking a hiatus from blogging publicly. The previous months events brought a need for some refocusing and privately blogging elsewhere. I needed to take time for me to heal mentally and get better. It was the first time in my life that I had to admit defeat and ask for help. It was hard, but it was probably the smartest thing I did for myself.

July: Still working on getting myself better I had an enormous breakdown at the airport and ended up not going to Florida as originally planned. This is the second time in my life that my flight anxiety got the better of me. I think this was the ultimate low point of the year.

August: Finally hit the big 3-0. I spent it quietly with some good friends in Florida. I still can’t believe I’m 30.

September: Both the Meester and I celebrated new jobs. Him with a new company and me with a promotion at my current job. Also? The new medication I started taking caused some serious constipation which quite frankly, I was really over by this point.

October: I’ve finally felt better than I have in a long time. Well enough to come back here and not hide behind closed doors. I’ve started to blog publicly about our problems with infertility and our road to IVF. We also added another member to our family of the four legged variety. The fact that this dog likes to poop behind the sofa on a regular basis makes me want to strangle myself. Yet, her complete and utter cutness just captivates us and makes us forget about said poop. It’s getting better. I finally got my dream car. I feel like the ultimate yuppy soccer mom now, sans the actual children.

November: Blogging about your infertility brings on asshat comments that I can’t stand. Went to Houston to visit Ms Pants. Got to meet Amy, who is one cool chick (and who also started my darts obsession). Also got to see one of my other favorite people. It was my first trip away by myself since moving out here. Lesson to be learned from this? If you leave your husband home by himself, he does stupid things. Bangs. What the fuck was I thinking? Learned to knit. LEARNED TO KNIT!!! Do you understand the severity of this? All in the name of making my dog sweaters.

December: Met an awesome group of infertile bloggers who reside in the bay area. It was nice to have women to bitch with. Went to see Barenaked Ladies in concert and refrained from licking Ed. Christmas spoiling. Vacation. Brings us to now, where I’m currently sitting in my robe typing, when I should actually be getting ready to head to Monterey and Carmel for the night.

Happy New Year everyone.

{ 12 comments }

amy t. December 29, 2005 at 1:56 pm

Yay! I made the list! I’m still working on my list. It should be done tomorrow (I hope).

Happy New Year!

robyn December 29, 2005 at 2:56 pm

Have a great time away – I know you need it! Happy New Year to you as well!

donna December 29, 2005 at 4:29 pm

I’m so glad to see you back “out!” I was so sad when you went behind closed doors.

I’m sad to hear about your infertility issues. We are having similar troubles and are trying to stay positive. It helps to hear others’ stories. I know that in 2006, we’ll both be celebrating some good news!

Lisa December 29, 2005 at 5:18 pm

I’m glad you’re back and feeling better. Lub you. Happy New Years.

Rob December 29, 2005 at 9:32 pm

I really like this idea… I’m just wondering if I can do it as a Monday-Tuesday-Wednesday… type of thing. I don’t remember what happened back in January (although I guess I could go look in my archives).

Helen December 30, 2005 at 3:27 am

Next year is the year we buy walking sticks so that we can start poking people with them. 2006 will be great. You’ll love it.

Pamela December 30, 2005 at 4:47 pm

Happy New Year!

girl December 30, 2005 at 8:09 pm

hopefully next time you hit the Houston area, I’ll get a chance to meet you too. :)

Donna December 30, 2005 at 11:31 pm

I’m trying to get up the will to do this month-by-month thing too, but I fear it will end up either too depressing or too boring. Maybe I’ll do it offline first to see if its worth posting. I’m glad I got to meet you too! (Even though you knit.)

thalia January 1, 2006 at 10:00 am

Oh I can’t bring myself to look back on this year, it’s just been too hard. I hope that 2006 is better.

liv January 1, 2006 at 10:00 pm

I’m glad you’re able to be positive and funny, even if 05 sucked some. Now I have to compete, to try (and fail) to be as hilarious and upbeat, because I’m like that.

Happy New Year, and here’s to a better 06. It has to be, right? I mean, right?

Deltus January 1, 2006 at 10:54 pm

May 2006 be the fulfillment of hope you have for it.

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