retarded Martha Stewart and thanks n’ stuff

by statia on November 23, 2005

Honestly, I’ve been going back and forth about writing my “Thanksgiving” post. Our Thanksgiving this year will be really mellow, as opposed to last year where I met the majority of my in laws at once, early in the morning. Did I mention I’m not a morning person? There were about 20 of us, and some kids and a couple of babies. Including “honkey baby”. Back then, it wasn’t that bad, but right now, I don’t think I could deal with being around kids or pregnant women for an entire weekend. Like many infertiles, the holidays are just a constant reminder of the one thing we long for, a child. Because loud obnoxious brats that are picky eaters make it all better. Really, they do. Even though we’re all thankful for what we have, it’s still hard to get through the holidays, as there’s always family that don’t know what’s going on, and rude comments about why haven’t you had children yet? There will be none of that in our house this year.

Instead I’ve stupidly volunteered to host Thanksgiving at our house. It’s only us and my mother in law and step father in law, and HOLY SHIT WHAT WAS I THINKING?? I can cook. I’ve done the Turkey dinners before. I don’t worry about anything tasting like shit so much as I don’t cook for other people that often and cooking a holiday meal for other people stresses me out. But I’m thankful that I can sit in my own house and practice my knitting (and holy shit, I’m knitting now too, what the HELL is happening to me, seriously?) and hang out with my family. I’m thankful that I’ve found my husband and that I have a dog that poops on the floor. Why? Because I’m alive, and I have my health.

I came home this weekend to find out that my old boss from HP lost his son last Saturday to Neuroblastoma. His five year old son lost his life after a very brave 19 month battle with this horrible disease and I can’t even begin to imagine what they’re going through. I can’t imagine having to be that age and living your life in hospitals, trying to understand what’s happening to you. So while I might be upset that I don’t have children yet, I have to put into perspective just how good I have it compared to what they’re facing this holiday season and for the rest of their lives.

{ 10 comments }

geeky November 23, 2005 at 7:33 pm

i’ve had a bit of reality check this week too. i found out on monday that a coworker unexpectedly died over the weekend. on friday she had a headache, and on sunday she was dead. scary. and then last night the fiance hit a deer with his car. he is perfectly fine, but i can’t help thinking that he was probably inches away from being in the hospital, or worse. it all makes me even more thankful for what i have.

Empress November 24, 2005 at 5:44 am

Happy Thanksgiving!

Lisa November 24, 2005 at 8:27 am

Happy Thanksgiving, chica!

Kathy November 24, 2005 at 10:47 am

Happy Thanksgiving bubs.

Manuela November 24, 2005 at 10:56 am

Yah… those reality checks are a definite kick in the pants. I had mine a few weeks back when someone I know was killed in a car crash… she had DESPERATELY been wanting a child… it was a major life issue for her… and now… she’s just gone.

Makes ya think… and appreciate.

Donna November 24, 2005 at 11:59 am

Perspective can be a bitch but she always gets her point across. I hope you can make your day into something enjoyable for you. And watch out Martha Stewart!

Merrin November 24, 2005 at 12:11 pm

Happy Thanksgiving, eat lots of turkey, and get your drink on. ;-)

Deltus November 24, 2005 at 1:42 pm

And I’ll try to walk away from reading this with a lesson as well. Regardless, Happy Thanksgiving, Statia! I know your meal was a good one.

debutaunt November 25, 2005 at 5:01 am

When I go through my chemo and other poking type treatments, I always remind myself that little kids and old peeps do this. Those are the ones that make me feel perspective. I’m just glad I wasn’t flattened by a bus. At least I can attempt to dodge this one. Happy Tday Mrs. Stewart. Next you’ll be knitting ponchos!

amy t. November 25, 2005 at 8:17 am

Please. For the love of all that is good. Do not knit ponchos.

Hope you had a great Thanksgiving!

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