If I were a Rich Girl

by statia on March 15, 2005

I’m getting to the point where I wonder where the hell I lost my blog. I’ve been blogging for close to three years. It’s gotten stale. I don’t have anything to say. I don’t really blog too much of my personal life. Something I never really got into much from the getgo, but I was more open when I first started. There’s only so much poop I can talk about. I don’t blog for me much anymore. Some people can share every aspect of their personal lives with hundreds, sometimes thousands of people.

The thought of that creeps me out.

I used to be funny, and witty. Now all I do is bitch and whine. I can’t really tell, but I don’t think it’s a lot of fun. Sadly, I don’t think that this is uncommon. You put yourself out there, wanting to be read, and then pull back when too many people are reading. This is not news. This is recycled crap. Coming out of my mouth. It always relates to shit, doesn’t it?

We have so much going on right now. More than I can even fathom. Real life stuff. Stuff that doesn’t get documented on my blog, but gets held close to me, and my husband. And while everyone is unique in how they blog, I’m not sure really sure that it’s worth it if I can’t speak freely on what’s going on. I’m not sure what I want to do here. I’m not sure if I want to continue, or take a break, or even if I want to move all of this over to a new domain, or start fresh. Taking back the blog™ seems like a good idea right now, but I’m not sure that would be good enough.

I just don’t know.

{ 19 comments }

Ms. Pants March 15, 2005 at 3:41 pm

heh. i really should charge royalties for that phrase. but do it. take it back.

xox

fran March 15, 2005 at 4:04 pm

god, even this post is whiny, bitchy and boring….

I KID! ;P

i was actually feeling the same way yesterday. i wanted to share things, but just the thought of going into detail without boring the hell out of everybody tired me! do what i do, make it a place to vent when you need to and that means sometimes not posting at all for days and not caring that you didn’t post. those friends close to you know how to touch base with you and vice verse if they need to talk to you anyway, so it’s no big deal…. :)

will there still be free cookies and milk if you take back blog though? just checking….

Sibeal March 15, 2005 at 7:57 pm

That’s what you get for being rich and famous, sweets. Obscurity does have its perks — I should know, I’ve been there the entire time I’ve been blogging (three and a half years).

I’ll be praying for you while you go through the things you’re going through and while you work out what you want to do with your blog. As always, my fervent prayer is that you find the joy that your heart both desires and deserves.

Deltus March 15, 2005 at 9:36 pm

Part of a possible solution is to remove any and all expectations from this blog. If it gets read, or not, it doesn’t matter. If you post every day, or not, it doesn’t matter. The content of your post, be it personal or funny or consistent, doesn’t matter.

ed adkins March 15, 2005 at 10:51 pm

you gotta do what you gotta do.

rest assured, if we need to find you on the web again we all know we just need to google something like “that parking meter guy totally screwed us up the ass with a cucumber wrapped in sandpaper!”

Helen March 16, 2005 at 5:42 am

I’m with Pants. Take it back. I do write about personal stuff but there is (amazingly) that I hold back. It’s your space to work things out, make fun of poop, quit while you’re ahead, whatever you want.

You’ll always have Sims. And I’ll always be around, on Yahoo! even if it’s at weird times of the day :)

debutaunt March 16, 2005 at 8:05 am

See the key is to just be unfunny. It totally works for me and I have like no one reading my blog. Then you can write about whatever the hell you want.

I understand why you need to do it, but will be sad when I can’t get my fill of daily doodie posts. Peace!

Faith March 16, 2005 at 11:11 am

At least people reading your blog can comment on the posts you write. Dammit.

I’d miss you if you were gone. Fo sho. But I think we all understand exactly how you feel. I haven’t had anything to post about (except for bullshit happenings that I don’t even care much about any more) for the past 2 weeks. I feel like I’m constantly waiting for the weird thoughts to wander through my head again, or for some interesting piece of news to make fun of to pop up in front of me on t.v. or CNN.com or wherever. But it just isn’t happening.

But then I think about the stuff I like to read on other peoples’ blogs, and I realize that talking about what I think might be boring to people might not be as obnoxious as my mind makes it out to be.

But you do whatcha gotta do…I hope things get easier for you, no matter what.

Pamela March 16, 2005 at 9:09 pm

I like to read your blog.
Whine, piss & moan, whinge, kavetch.
These are not complaints…
They’re observations!

Princess March 17, 2005 at 8:42 am

Sounds like the same thought process I went through before axing mine. Do what’s best for you.

Annastazia March 17, 2005 at 6:29 pm

I’m with Sibeal on this one. I don’t have the amount of readers that you do, so I can’t say that I’ve been there.

But I do know that I would miss you if you were gone. However, I also understand that you have to do what you have to do in order to be happy. Once it’s no longer fun anymore, you just have to let it go or decide how to take it back.
Do whatever feels right for you.

fricative March 17, 2005 at 8:14 pm

Inspired.

Statia talked about it, and I thought: even my closest friends ask. I type up an entry, something that may be just a flicker in my mind–a minor ballerina spinning erratically at the back of the stage–and I manage to…

Deltus March 18, 2005 at 7:56 am

Come back, sporty, come baaaaaack… :)

No, seriously, are you still alive?

robyn March 18, 2005 at 9:36 am

I’ve never regretted walking away, nor keeping what I do have small and nowhere near what the old one was like. (Hell, I hardly even update the passworded one anymore.) Your mileage may vary — but the pressure of having to update every 5 minutes with something quite frankly blows that cucumber wrapped in sandpaper.

geeky March 18, 2005 at 11:08 am

i’ve been getting the same feeling lately. except that my life is also very boring, so even if i did blog about that, my site would still be boring.

Jonathan March 18, 2005 at 11:57 am

Blarg.

Bent Fabric March 18, 2005 at 1:07 pm

Ditto. I feel the same way.

D March 18, 2005 at 1:59 pm

I know the feeling, i’ve resorted to posting fat pictures of myself.

redsaid March 18, 2005 at 7:28 pm

Oh, I don’t want you to stop! But it’s your life, your sanity, etc. What a strange thing blogging is… you suddenly get a peanut gallery commenting about your thoughts. Can be lovely, but also very strange. Knock(ers) on wood, but I’ve never had a bad experience. Then again, I’ve not even blogged a year yet!
Anyway, my point was that we would miss you very much if you decided to quit. But then, it really isn’t about us. So, there. You have my support, whatever you decide to do. NOW CAN I BABYSIT THE G-DOG?
(GASP! I’ve just had a FABULOUS idea… you don’t have to write a single word. You can just post pictures of the dog every day and we, your adoring fans, could write captions. That way you’re entertained (hopefully) and we get our fix!)

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